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Jan 8·edited Oct 7Author

i wrote this one in a single sitting from like ~3-5am, no editing, just vibes. this is probably how i'm gonna do most of my essays this year, because i got a newborn son to care for and it's hard to... do anything complicated

edit: also for future ref i just wanna drop this link about lanshops in singapore https://www.ricemedia.co/culture-we-cant-champion-e-sports-celebrating-the-lan-shop/

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Jan 11Liked by visakan veerasamy

I liked the style of the writing. Look forward to more pieces like this one :)

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Jan 10Liked by visakan veerasamy

I don't know you well enough to really say this but this felt like vintage visa - looking forward to it :)

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I’m super here for it. The last line made my heart flutter with excitement that you were ending it there. I really love this whole thing, and right at the end I started thinking about the obsession/devotion frame we were tweeting about and I just wrote about here. devotion is overarching commitment and obsession is too much of a good thing.

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Jan 8Liked by visakan veerasamy

I think as we get older we tend to appreciate Type 2 fun more, the fulfilment that comes as a reward for hard effort that doesn't always feel like fun at the time. But this can be a trap, and we start doing the hard work habitually, even though the Type 2 fun doesn't arrive. Mindful Type 1 frivolous fun to the rescue. Play should be taken seriously...

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Jan 8Liked by visakan veerasamy

Camus said, "If you want to do philosophy, write a novel." But those were ancient pre-twitter days and I think in your case he meant tweet rivers until they overflow into substack essays and books. Once again you're the philosopher we need

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hahaha you're too kind Kristin, thank you! i do often wonder how those old-time greats might've adapted to our circumstances

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Jan 9Liked by visakan veerasamy

I once thought to myself that philosophers of today are meant to be better than the likes of Nietzsche or Plato because none of them had the power of Twitter or social media in general. More ideas rubbing off on you from far-flung parts of the world should naturally result in better material. Right? I cant say for sure anymore

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Not necessarily. Information is a good thing, but per the chocolate dosage problem, it can be harmful in excess. As an economist, my brain instantly goes to "law of diminishing returns" - adding some fertilizer to virginal land will improve yields, but adding 3 feet of fertilizer will kill everything. Perhaps the philosophers of yesteryear had a better arrangement of philosophical raw-material than we do, despite the abundance of things like information and connection.

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Jan 9Liked by visakan veerasamy

i've been thinking about fun and trying to have fun. like in the closing paragraph, it seems like there's some constraints involved and diminishing returns too. like if there's only 2-3 hours of time to spare, you gotta make the best out of it.

any longer, or wishing it was longer kinda diminishes the fun.

trying to stuff everything into that free time then you're not really free with your time either

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Jan 8Liked by visakan veerasamy

I think fun is often misunderstood because you can’t define fun without first understanding what personal happiness and fulfillment mean to you.

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Jan 10Liked by visakan veerasamy

Some days ago I rewatched Bo Burnham's Inside and the ending of this essay reminded me of that.

Paraphrasing: "I was afraid I was never going to complete this project, but now that I'm getting close to finishing it I'm even more terrified. [...] That's it, I'm not finishing! I'm talking to no one, cause I'll never release this, and I'll work on it forever."

It's not as simple as just being able to recognize when something that felt good stopped being so. It's possible to become so attached to the *idea* that something is good that even when it's painfully obvious that it isn't anymore, it's hard to let it go.

I may be wrong, but I'm guessing you probably realized that by the 10nth or 15nth Kinder Bueno that they weren't as tasty as before and maybe even feeling about sick of them already, but went through the remaining ones anyway? (It's certainly what happened to me in similar situations :p)

We kind of talk about this when dealing with outside narratives (e.g. people caring about with generic "success" and the markers of it when really they don't get any intrinsic pleasure from fancy cars or nice suits or cool job title or whatever) but it's easy to get enamored with the idea of the thing even when the thing itself is enjoyable as well (picture the main guy in a 90's teen movie losing his virginity and focusing more on the the fact that *he* is having sex than that he's *having sex*). Maybe there's something about mindfulness here: pay attention to the thing, and how you feel about the thing, rather than the narrative around the thing.

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Yes, I think that fun is not eternal, nor lasting even that long. It is a reflection of interestingness that leads to a good feeling. Something interesting is new. Repeat anything you find interesting enough times and you will stop finding it interesting.

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